Monday, June 03, 2002
Wednesday, October 31, 2001
Thursday, October 25, 2001
havent blogged in awhile...havent been on the internet too much at all...havent done much of anything lately, mostly work and not be at the house, i've found the house more enjoyable now that i am not there as much, i let them do their own thing while i do mine. this time of year is my favorite, all the leaves are dying and falling to the ground, the air is crisp and cool in the afternoon, it makes me feel very peaceful and happy to be around. i have a lot on my mind these days, but it comes and goes. sometimes i'm as abscent minded as a shot glass...other times i can philosophize for hours. if i had steady access to the internet i would be writing my thoughts on my blog instead of in my black book. on a better note i'm going to see TOOL again. Nov. 6th @ 7:30pm in portland, then going to another show afterwards...then possibly going to 2 other shows next month, it would be the shit, but we'll see what happens. wierd time of year...wierd things happening, not all good..but mostly good. well world, take it easy for now, and i'll speak to you once again sometime.
peace mode
"i could float here forever"
peace mode
"i could float here forever"
Sunday, October 14, 2001
well, here we are again...just waiting for something to happen....good...bad...its all the same, as long as its SOMETHING. got 3 days off in a row after tomorrow, which is definetly a good thing. i like having the chance to clear my head of work. i'm trying to get into a better place of work...something more mentally stimulating. i need some flavor in my life....a little taste...something spicy...like a nice little latino girl...or a burrito from taco bell...both are equally enjoyable. or not. i need a little color, this black and white just aint cutting it. i need another change...i need another chance.
peace mode
"i dont think you trust in my self righteous suicide, i cry when angels deserve to die"
peace mode
"i dont think you trust in my self righteous suicide, i cry when angels deserve to die"
Friday, October 12, 2001
well...here i am, after a long time. i'm sure no one is really going to read this, but i guess thats not really the point. i'm in my house and it isnt all that its cracked up to be. i mean, i'm glad that i'm still living in eugene, but things are just not going as i thought, but thats usually how it goes. i really do prefer to live alone and have a group of friends that i can hang out with when i want to. but thats in a perfect world. i had a lot that i wanted to type about a few nights ago...but i really cant remember what it was about. i really hate when that happens. i know i have mentioned this on numerous occasions...but i feel that i'm loosing my old friendships with people that still live in newport...well, fuck it, one in particular that i'd like to keep close, but for some reason i just cant let her back in, i really do want to be friends with her again, just like back in the old old days when we would hang out in newport. i've tried so many times to do stuff with her that i would like to, but everytime i do, it almost happens....its comes insanly close to happening. i dont know what to do anymore, she is about 100 miles away and we hardly do, when we do it always ends very badly, either because i'm being my good old honest self or she is just in a mood to argue. yeah, so i'm gonna sleep now.
peace mode
"yeah, our pain.....tormorrow...tomorrow comes today."
peace mode
"yeah, our pain.....tormorrow...tomorrow comes today."
Sunday, September 16, 2001
have you ever wanted to be someone else? if even for a day? today was my day. i wanted to know what it felt like to be privilaged and fed the world on a silver spoon. i was so tired of being me today...i wanted to try something new. i think its time for me to move on again, its been about six months of the same thing, now i'm ready to take another step. i feel as if i've learned a lot about myself in the past six months, you'd think after so long of learning about yourself that you would run out of things to find, but its neverending, thus, because you are neverending....or I am neverending.
peace mode
"let the bodies hit the floor...nothing wrong with me....let the bodies hit the floor"
peace mode
"let the bodies hit the floor...nothing wrong with me....let the bodies hit the floor"
Thursday, September 13, 2001
well, i'm back and in the house...took a few days to get a phone and everything...its been a week and two days since we moved in, i'm happy, not eagerly awaiting the arrival of the others, they are big party people, while i'm down with just doing stuff with a few good friends....i'm kinda busy...so i'll be back...sometime
"i know why you pity yourself, i know why you pity me"
"i know why you pity yourself, i know why you pity me"

